my obsession

haay! im being too obsessed with love lately.. ewan ko ba! i just love my man so much! waah! and nobody seems to understand me besides myself..

i thought i didn't know how to love..i had a heart of stone, i couldn't count my oops-i-did-it-again experiences. hindi naman sa nagmamaganda ako, it was just so impossible for me to fall for less than the kind of boyfriend i pictured in my mind. i tried several times and i already gave up on trying.

then i met this strange foreign beauty,hahaha. nkahanap ako ng katapat! mas mayabang, mas suplado,and mas conservative than i am. he regards himself so highly it's annoying! and aside from his height, he's nothing that i wanted.  pero kung bakit by some work of magic, i suddenly couldn't remember ever wanting anything else besides what was in front of my eyes--si panky.=)

kaya lang Indian siya so it doesn't seem to be acceptable to almost all my friends and some of my family. they say he's DIFFERENT. but what am i supposed to do when the reason why they disapprove of him is the very same reason that turned me head over heels? i love so much that he's different.it's like trying to find a puting uwak to look for a pinoy who has the same qualities.

i love the way he doesn't mind me ranting at him every single day and how he gets me with "i'm sorry sweet heart i won't do it again";  the way he never argues with me over petty things and instead does silly things to make me laugh so ill stop nagging;

the way he cannot refuse my "emotional blackmail" as he calls it, and the frustrated face he makes;i love the way he refuses to show that he's jealous;

the way he trusts and respects me; the way he asks me which shirt looks better on him; the way we both love eating; the way he ignores when i break up with him because he knows it's definitely not what i want;

the way he lets me be myself; the way he always keeps to his word; the way he patiently waits for me to dress up; his poor sense of direction and the way he gets us lost almost everytime;

the fact that everyone respects him; the way everyone who knows him tells me i've found a good guy;the way they seem to be so happy that we ended up together;

the way he's always happy it's contagious; that he brought so many firsts into my life;

i love the fact that he's brought out the best in me and seen the worst of me and loves me anyway;the way hes not afraid to be himself around me knowing ill love him just the same;

the way he closes his eyes when he prays before starting the day; the way he smiles; the smile he puts on my face when he smiles..

i think the list would go on forever.

i thought being apart would make it possible to forget kasi mahirap if i hold on to him.. but i don't know how he makes me fall even deeper each time i decide to take a step back. he's superman in my eyes.haha..sobra na ako noh? i just find it so amazing how someone finally conquered me,that someone is more powerful than me over my own mind and heart. super galing..

but most of all, i love him for stopping me from losing weight because he thinks i'm beautiful like this.i love him talaga!hehe.